Like Romeo and Juliet, we`re not to be together.
A broken heart, a broken life, it`s broken all together.
A pain inside, so strong and cruel, that`s my life - one simple rule.
Stay away and life goes well, but I don`t care - I welcome hell!
I just wish that someday, somehow things will work out for me. I choose the wrong things in life all the time, and someone always ends up getting hurt or angry. Now, why is that - the thing about me that makes shit happen? I haven`t quite figured it out yet, but I`m getting there... I think..
I am cursed in a way that goes both ways. I`m filled up with this thing they call love and care. I love my family, my friends and my boyfriend, so if I love each one of them the same - how can I choose? I won`t, I refuse! I deserve to be happy, to have good things happening to me! Just as I wish that for those around me. Oh, I really do love those close to my heart, but life is all about making choises. What choise remains when I won`t close my heart for any part? Death? Oh, no - it`s such an easy way to let go of the hard feelings and all the pain. I don`t think I have it in me anyway. I wish someone could tell me what to do, to make the rigth choise and make me believe it! My love is so strong that it`s almost to painful to bare. But no one sees that. They don`t understand my struggle. I figth in the silence. I fight alone. What I really should be doing is just to take my things and leave. far away and don`t tell anyone! But I guess people would be missing me though. I don`t know if I should laugh or cry. It`s insane! I`m insane if this goes on! It`s a fucking Romeo and Juliet love story gone all wrong! I see no good in my future if this continue,
so I beg of you Lord -
make me stronger or take my life!
